Editor: I hope you enjoy this guest post from Sarah as much as I have, I look forward to your feedback.
These words have been a bit of a mantra of mine of late.
I am running late for a doctors appointment, and traffic is a nightmare. But, it is all okay, because I am exactly where I need to be. Everything is as it should be.
This acceptance that the world is perfect just as it is, is a lovely realisation to come too. The world is perfect in its imperfections. And you are too!
This realisation is a step towards a greater acceptance that I need to come to. I need to accept the autism in my life, that my children are exactly as they are meant to be. I am not there yet. I am not willing to let go of the possibility that I can somehow ‘improve’ them. They need to be better in order to function as adults, and I want this so much for them.
As I said, it is a step forward. A small step, but forward.
I believe that it is easier to start on the inconsequential. If I can accept that we have ran out of coconut flakes, then surely, eventually, I can accept that my pain won’t ever go away. If I can talk myself out of the stress of traffic standing still on the freeway, then there is hope that one day I will accept I was not invited to the wedding of someone who I thought of as a good friend.
Acceptance is tied up with forgiveness. Both are hard. But start small and eventually we’ll get there.
Try to remind yourself that everything is just as it should be and let me know how you go.